"Let’s make a night, you won’t remember. I’ll be the one, you won’t forget." :) Can’t get this song out of my head right now.
Life is a series of constant discoveries. Wether it’s about the people we know/meet, or the places we go, or even the truth about ourselves, the experience from these discoveries shapes who we are.
Throughout this journey, we would find ourselves at a cross road and have to make a choice. Often times, it’s quite hard and ambiguous as to which is best. However, there are some rare instances where life gives us some confirmation, or rather hints, as to what we should or should not be doing or simply be where we are.
Well, I’m the sort of person who likes to observe life and learns about its experience. It does help that I travelled and met such a diverse group of people throughout. I would often go back and examine my own experiences and apply what I’ve learned.
Anyway, the point when I’m trying to get to is that I’m currently at a cross road and deciding my own path. I’m not sure if I’m lucky or I’m just well planned - it’s probably a combination of the two, my life has the tendency to resolve its own problem and open a path. Each of these paths shape the person I am today.
This is one cross road decision in progress. I’m not sure how it would turn out yet; all I know is I’m not where I am supposed to be. I believe life has been giving me that hint/confirmation about this. Recently, I was at an event and I know all these people but none I’m particularly close with. Stranded between conversations and awkward interactions, I found myself feeling lonely and being an outcast almost. I’m sure it wasn’t like that but it just seemed that way to me.
I didn’t think much about it ‘til now. The question “why would I put myself in that situation?” from a story I was reading brought me back to my situation. I shouldn’t feel lonely, left out, uninterested, and trapped where I am.
So yea…..this is another hint from life telling me to find my place in the world else where. It’s gonna take some trials but I’m confident that I’ll find where I’m supposed to be. Until then, I just have to stay motivated and make the best of the moment.
Yup, this is me right now. I’m a real mess if that’s what you’re thinking. Sometimes all it takes is a step back to see what is going and the forward path will appear.
That’s all for now. ‘Til next time.
PS can’t wait for when I get to travel again.